Well, That Was Unexpected

Much to my surprise, my beta came back as 45 on Friday. It is a little low for my comfort, but the nurse just thinks I implanted late. Ok, what were those 2 embies doing in there for the past two weeks? I had terrible cramps all day Friday so I drank 5 bottles of water and slept all day. The cramping has since disappeared. I go in tomorrow for my second beta. I'm not really sure what to think. I thought I would be so happy to hear the words "Your pregnant!" but I've just been so nervous! When does this get easier? I'll post more tomorrow when I won't be so concerned about jinxing myself. Yup, I've officially lost my mind.